Sad and Starving

Ever since my weigh-in I have been feeling super sad about food. I constantly think about baked goods like brownies and bread and cookies and resent that I can't just pig out on them. I want to buy myself a giant heart-shaped box of chocolate and dive in. I am absolutely not going to do it, but the cravings are constant, like an addict the first couple days after getting off their drug.

I eat my good power foods like I'm supposed to, and it doesn't taste good and it doesn't satisfy and I am constantly starving. I know this is just a phase and it will pass as long as I power through, but that doesn't make it any more enjoyable in the meantime.

I felt a little better when I got to Crossfit yesterday because I was happy to be thinking about working out instead of food for at least a couple of minutes. But then the workout was so tough that it just made me feel more miserable. I should have at least felt good after I completed it, but instead I was bitter that I have to work out and make myself feel that way instead of just saying screw it and eating donuts.

Believe it or not, this is not PMS. I wish it was, because then at least I could hang a label on it and know that it was not "real" and be sure that it would pass. I am sure that it will pass but it's a bummer not knowing why I even feel this way or what I can do about it. Just need to keep on keepin' on.